Watching the light at the end of the tunnel.

Greeting to all


For a long time I walked in the middle of a very dark tunnel where I could not find the light. It seemed as if in that moment of my life everything seemed conspire against me. My health condition was getting worse, the doctors had ruled out the possibility of a surgery, I had forbidden to drive, I had been instructed not to continue working, I was facing the side effects of many medicines, giving up my job made the economic situation more complicated, I had no close relatives who could help me, those close were not helping me and many who called themselves friend had chosen to turn their back to us in the moment of need. The big question: Where God was in that moment of my life? Another though that went through my mind was when the time would come in which the storm would be gone and I could see the light again.


My typical day in that period was to wake up at 5:30 am for my husband to take me to the school where my oldest child studied and stay there until he entered the classroom , then go with my daughter  to see where to spend the time with her  until 2:00 pm.. I would take the train back to school pick up my son and go with them to a bakery nearby to study with my sons while my daughter cried because she was sleepy, and wait for my husband to continue get out of work to pick us up and continue to the house arriving at night. Sometime I spend hours on the train because I did not know what to do when it was raining. Certainly a depressing moment and a moment that I could see the cruelty of many who, being able to help, did not helped, and the kindness of others who, without having to help , offered their help to us.


When we experienced those moments,  many thoughts went through our minds, in my case one of them was for me to strive to make a profession that I can't  exercise now. Others thoughts were: to question What my purpose in this life was? Where were those who in good time surrounded us and now they have disappeared? Where is God who seems not to hear my prayers or see my tears? Those were just some of the thoughts because I could  be the whole day writing thoughts that I had in my mind at that moment. During the period I had two paths to choose. The first was to walk away from God and say that he did not exist because he was not listening to my prayers. The second was to cling to my faith with all my heart, strength and soul and tell me " this moment will go away because God will give me victory"


In my case I decided to hold on to the faith and trust that the dark cloud would go away and that God would give me the victory over adversity and I hold on to the hope that the sun would rise again. That was my first step to get up, find my purpose and to smile again. Although we were in that situation more than two years, God heard our prayer and gave us the opportunity of a new beginning. In the middle of an evangelistic campaign I got the news that the doctors had decided to do surgery after they had discarded it and in November 2014 I underwent a surgery to target my seizures, the results I will share in another blog, but I thank God his mercy for what it became the beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. As I have written in others blogs, after mu surgery, my husband was offered a new job opportunity in a new nation where we moved, solving our economic problem, where we have been well received and where we have lived wonderful experiences.


The sun started to shine and to rise again leave for us, and in an unequaled way now when looking back we can see as we left a dark tunnel to a valley full as flowers and light. The big question is; Why God allowed me to live all of that? He save a simple answer: No one see the light until the dark has ended, no one values what joy is until he/she has experienced sadness, no one values what is abundance until he/she has lived misery, nobody knows the benefits of healthy body until he/she has lost health, nobody know the value of a true friend until he/she has been trayed. Very few value the greatness of God until they have had to depend totally and absolutely from him.


I believe that God prepared me to know how to thank and value what a blessing is and he taught me that He is a friend who never fails, always listens to you, never leaves you and will always love you. His name is Jesus and as long I have Him at my side nothing will be missing as he is the owner of the universe. Today my life turned into one with a purpose, course and meaning. If he did it to me he can do it for you. If you keep your faith in Him. Remember that the greater your mission in this life, the greater should be your training to be able to fulfill it.


Jeremiah 1:19 say " And they shall fight against thee; but they shall not prevail against thee; for I am with thee, said the Lord, to deliver thee.


Remember that no one collapses whom God has raised, no one defeats whom God protects, no one curses whom God blesses. God is bigger than anything you have to face today, trust Him and His power and you will see that what embarrassed you once or hurt you before will serve you proudly in the future and will make you a strong person and will prepare you to succeed. God bless you and help you find the purpose of him in your lives.