When the pain is greater than the faith

Greetings

There are times in our lives when the pain is so great that it doesn’t allow us to feel the presence of God, weakening our faith. I have had moments in my life in which I have experienced that feeling. There was a time when my husband was in the hospital with a very delicate health situation and the anguish I felt was so big that it didn’t let me feel the presence of God, and I felt that my faith was starting to break; I didn’t even feel the strength to pray. It was at that moment that I decided to call a friend and say: "Please come to the hospital, I have no strength and my faith is broken, the pain is not letting me feel the presence of God."  Then she said: "I'm heading to the hospital, please stay calm."

When my friend arrived, I said: "I'm out of strength, I need to pray but I do not have strength"; I asked her to please have a prayer, and we went to a place alone where we read the Bible and she began to pray. While she prayed, despite eyes closed, I saw the shadow of a person circling around us. When she finished praying she said, "Now I ask you, do you believe that God has the power to raise your husband?" And I answer, "My faith is broken by all this pain I’m feeling," Then my friend asks again, "Do you believe that God has the power to raise your husband, yes or no?" I answer that although my faith is broken I believe that God can raise him and I ask God to help me to strengthen my faith. In that very moment, I felt an immense peace inside me that I cannot explain. I didn’t tell her what I had seen while she prayed, we said goodbye and I went back to my husband's room; That night I slept in a chair beside him with a lot of cold but with great peace. The next day my friend called me to ask how my husband was and how I felt. While we were talking, she asked me: "Yesterday while we were praying didn’tt you saw a shadow around us?" And I said yes. She said, "Me too, and the question I asked you at the end of the prayer was motivated by something inside me, something I cannot explain”. After two days, my husband was discharged from the hospital.

That is why I repeat to you that I believe in God because I have felt his present in my life, not because anybody has told me, and that is why I urge you also to give yourself the opportunity to feel it too. He loves us and wants to walk beside us and help us; We just must trust Him.

In John 16: 20-24 it says, "Very truly I tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.  In that day, you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. Until now you have not asked for anything in”

1 Peter 5: 7 says, "Casting all your anxiety upon him, because he cares for you."

The message “do not fear” appears throughout the Scriptures with firmness and persistence. After all, fear and anxiety have been part of human existence since sin entered the earth. Anxiety and fear about what may happen is one of the most dangerous emotions for physical and mental health. A medieval legend tells of a traveler who one night encountered Fear and Plague on the way to London, where they hoped to kill ten thousand people. The traveler asked Plague if he would do all that killing. "Oh, no," said Plague, "I will kill only a few hundred, my friend, Fear will kill the rest. "

John 14:14 "If you ask anything in my name, I will do it."

It is my desire that even when you have moments of pain, you can trust that you have a Father in heaven who cares for you and will not abandon you, and always remember that the darkest moment of the night is when the sun is about to rise. Do not give up, because, with a little faith and perseverance, you can achieve what you have wish for. Trust in God’s promises and remember that even if there are times in our lives in which the pain doesn’t let us feel the presence of God, He will always be by our side because He loves us and gave His life for us